his story

기분이 안좋거나 뭔가 파괴하고 싶은 욕구가 꿈틀거릴때 듣는 음악이 있습니다. 주로 헤비메탈이나 시끄러운 rock인데요. 이 노래도 감정을 순화시켜주는데 꽤 효과가 있습니다. 헤드윅 OST 삽입곡 중에 'The origin of love' 라는 곡입니다. 최근에 우모의 MP3플레이어 단골 음악이라는...


노래 가사도 좋지만, 나즈막한 목소리에서 절정에 이르는 선율도 괜챦구요. 파괴적인 드럼소리도 끌립니다. 영화 속에 헤드윅이 이 노래를 부를 때의 느낌을 상상하면서 들으면 가사는 더욱 리얼하게 느껴지구요. 가사는 좀 긴데요. 곱씹어들으면 마치 서사시를 보는 듯한 사고의 깊이를 가지고 있습니다. 경계인 헤드윅이 보는 사랑과 성에 대한 관점, 그리고 분노가 잘 담겨져 있네요.

가사에 간혹 문법에 안맞는 부분이 보이는데요, 동베를린 이민자였던 헤드윅이라는 점을 감안하고 보시면 될 듯 싶습니다.

When the earth was still flat
And clouds made of fire
And mountains stretched up to the sky
Sometimes higher
Folks roamed the earth like big rolling kegs
They had two sets of arms
They had two sets of legs
They had two faces peering out of one giant head
So they could watch all around them
As they talked while they read
And they never knew nothing of love
It was before the origin of love
The origin of love

Now there was three sexes then
One that looked like two men glued up back to back
They called the children of the sun
And similar in shape and girth was the children of the earth
They looked like two girls rolled up in one
And the children of the moon
Looked like a fork shoved on a spoon
They was part sun, part earth,
Part daughter, part son
The origin of love

Now the gods grew quite scared of our strength and defiance
And Thor said,
“I’m gonna kill them all with my hammer like I killed the giants”
But Zeus said,
"No, You better let me
Use my lightning like scissors
like I cut the legs off the whales dinosaurs into lizards.”
"And then he grabbed up some bolts
He let out a laugh
Said,
“I’ll split them right down the middle gonna cut them right up in half.”
And the storm clouds gathered above
Into great balls of fire

And then fire shot down from the sky in bolts
Like shining blades of a knife
And it ripped right through
the flesh of the children of the sun and the moon and the earth
And some Indian god
Sewed the wound up to a hole
Pulled around to our bellies
To remind us of the price we pay
And Osiris and the gods of the Nile
Gathered up a big storm
To blow a hurricane
To scatter us away
In a flood of wind and rain
A sea of tidal waves
To wash us all away
If we don't behave they'll cut us down again
And we'll be hopping around on one foot
And looking through one eye

Last time I saw you
We just split in two
You was looking at me I was looking at you
You had a way so familiar,
I could not recognize
Cause you had blood on your face I had blood in my eyes
But I could swear by your expression!
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in my mine
That's the pain It cuts a straight line
Down through the heart
We called it love
We wrapped our arms around each other
Tried to shove ourselves back together
We was making love Making love
It was a cold dark evening Such a long time ago
When by the mighty hand of Jove,
It was a sad story
How we became Lonely two-legged creatures It’s the story of The origin of love
That’s the origin of love
Yeah, the origin of love
The origin of love
The origin of love

헤드윅에서 들은 노래 중에 잔잔하면서 감미로운 노래가 있습니다. 토미가 헤드윅의 노래 부르는 모습에 반하기도 했었는데요. 바로 이 곡을 부를 때였습니다. 들을수록 귀에 착 달라 붙는 곡인데요. WIcjed little town은 헤드윅과 토미가 부른 두가지 버전이 있습니다. 가사는 서로 달라서 서로에게 사랑을 고백하고 용서를 구하는 내용으로 되어 있는데요. 헤드윅은 나중에 자신의 노래를 토미가 개사해서 부르는 것을 듣고 뜨거운 눈물을 흘리죠. 둘다 노래를 참 잘 부르네요.

참고로 헤드윅이 부를 때 뒤에서 연주하는 동양여인들은 주한미군과 결혼해 미국에 정착한 코리안 어메리컨들입니다. 약간 오버하는 캐릭터로 나오는 광희가 거슬리긴 하지만 어쨌든... 영화는 영화일뿐... 흥분하지 말자.^^


You know, the sun is in your eyes
And hurricanes and rains
and black and cloudy skies.

You re running up and down that hill.
You turn it on and off at will.
There's nothing here to thrill or bring you down.

And if you've got no other choice
You know you can follow my voice
through the dark turns and noise of this wicked little town.

The fates are vicious and they're cruel.
You learn too late you've used two wishes like a fool
and then you're someone you are not,
and Junction City ain't the spot,
remember Mrs. Lot and when she turned around.

And if you've got no other choice
You know you can follow my voice
through the dark turns and noise of this wicked little town.



Forgive me,
For I did not know.
'Cause I was just a boy
And you were so much more

Than any god could ever plan,
More than a woman or a man.
And now I understand how much I took from you:

That, when everything starts breaking down,
You take the pieces off the ground
And show this wicked town
something beautiful and new.

You think that Luck
Has left you there.
But maybe there's nothing
up in the sky but air.

And there's no mystical design,
No cosmic lover preassigned.
There's nothing you can find
that can not be found.

'Cause with all the changes
you've been through
It seems the stranger's always you.
Alone again in some new
Wicked little town.

So when you've got no other choice
You know you can follow my voice
Through the dark turns and noise
Of this wicked little town.

Oh it's a wicked, little town.
Goodbye, wicked little town

그동안 와이프가 집에서 많이 틀어놓는 음악이 있었는데요. 하도 많이 틀어서 절로 흥얼거리기도 했었습니다. 하지만 노래제목이 뭔지 가수가 누구인지는 잘 몰랐습니다. 와이프가 뮤지컬을 보고 와서 사온 CD였기에, 그저 신나고 듣기 좋은 뮤지컬이겠거니 했었죠. 간만에 같이 영화를 볼겸 비디오를 빌려왔는데 그게 바로 뮤지컬과 영화로 만들어진 헤드윅(Hedwig)이었습니다.

약간 중의적인 의미가 풍기는 헤드윅(Hedwig)은 동독의 한 소년의 이름인데요. 헤드윅이 미국이라는 신천지를 향해 나가기 위해 성전환수술을 하지만, 실패로 끝나 남자도 여자도 아닌 어정쩡한 삶을 살게 되는 자신의 삶을 모놀로그 형식으로 풀어내는 영화입니다.

제가 헤드윅을 중의적인 의미라고 느꼈던건 머리에 쓰는 가발(head wig)이 이 영화에서 중요한 함의점이 되고 있어서입니다. 트렌스젠더가 여자로 살아가기 위해서 써야 하는 가발, 하지만 자신의 신체는 아닌 인위적인 자아를 상징하는게 가발이거든요. 헤드윅은 항상 가발을 쓰고 무대위에 섰지만, 마지막 장면엔 가발이 없는 맨몸으로 세상을 나서면서 끝을 맺습니다. 결국 비로소 헤드윅이 헤드 윅(Head wig)을 벗어던지고 자아를 찾는걸 상징하는게 아닐까 싶네요.

영화는 약간 몽환적입니다. 아동 취향의 애니메이션이 섞이기도 하고 퇴폐적인 하드코어 영상이 흐르기도 합니다. 음악도 좋습니다. 잔잔한 독백형식의 음악도 흐르고요. 폭발적인 락이 어깨를 들썩이게도 합니다. 스토리도 생각을 많이 하게 합니다. 헤드윅(존 카메론 미첼)의 성 정체성을 찾는 형식을 취하지만, 주변 인물들의 캐릭터도 꽤나 매력적이죠. 헤드윅을 이용하지만 나중에 깨닫는 토미(마이클 피트), 헤드윅에 매여 살지만 나중에 뮤지컬 렌트를 통해 자신의 길을 걷는 이츠학(미리엄 쇼어). 모두 끊임없이 자아와 투쟁하는 인간군상이네요.

영화로 미루어 볼 때 충분히 뮤지컬에서도 감동적일 것이라 보여지네요. 뮤지컬을 본 와이프도 그렇게 얘기하구요. 언제 한번 뮤지컬로 직접 봐야겠네요. 헤드윅. 제가 딱 좋아하는 스타일의 영화입니다.

영화에서 가장 인상적이었던 곡 하나 올려봅니다.
Wig in a box라는 곡입니다.




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On nights like this
when the world's a bit amiss
and the lights go down
across the trailer park
I get down
I feel had
I feel on the verge of going mad
and then it's time to punch the clock

I put on some make-up
and turn up the tape deck
and pull the wig down on my head
suddenly I'm Miss Midwest
Midnight Checkout Queen
until I head home
and put myself to bed

I look back on where I'm from
look at the woman I've become
and the strangest things
seem suddenly routine
I look up from my Vermouth on the rocks
a gift-wrapped wig still in the box
of towering velveteen.

I put on some make-up
and some LaVern Baker
and pull the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm Miss Beehive 1963
Until I wake up
And turn back to myself

Some girls they have natural ease
they wear it any way they please
with their French flip curls
and perfumed magazines
Wear it up
Let it down
This is the best way that I've found
to be the best you've ever seen

I put on some make-up
and turn up the eight-track
I'm pulling the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm Miss Farrah Fawcett
from TV
until I wake up
and turn back to myself

Shag, bi-level, bob
Dorothy Hammil do,
Sausage curls, chicken wings
It's all because of you
With your blow dried, feather back,
Toni home wave, too
flip, fro, frizz, flop,
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you

I put on some make-up
turn up the eight-track
I'm pulling the wig down from the shelf
Suddenly I'm this punk rock star
of stage and screen
and I ain't never
I'm never turning back